Dead inside

The "Dead Inside" series delves into the emotional depths of despair and disconnection, capturing the silent struggle of reconciling with life's overwhelming events. Through haunting imagery and raw, expressive forms, each piece portrays the tension between outward appearances and the inner void. This collection reflects the artist’s journey through emotional isolation, offering a powerful narrative on the complexities of detachment and the search for meaning amidst turmoil. Featured in the artist's solo exhibition in Santa Clarita in 2023/2024, this series stands as a personal and evocative testament to inner conflict.

Glowing Star Veins

"Glowing Star Veins" captures the profound sense of detachment that comes with anhedonia, reflecting the struggle of attempting to find joy in what once brought fulfillment. The piece portrays fragments of life, where a smile becomes a mask, concealing the emptiness within. Through its delicate textures and haunting imagery, the artwork reveals the tension between outward appearances and the internal void, offering a poignant glimpse into the experience of emotional disconnection.

24" x 18" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2022

The night of living silence

"The Night of Living Silence" captures the haunting beauty and tension of insomnia, drawing parallels between the vast, unseen ocean at night and the restless mind. The artwork evokes the mysterious allure of the ocean’s unseen depths—a place both inviting and dangerous, whispering from the shadows. In the ever-lit city of Los Angeles, the constant glow of lights disrupts the connection with nature, transforming the wild, untamed force of the night into something subdued and quiet. This piece reflects the internal struggle of wanting to rest but being kept awake, trapped in a world that never truly sleeps.

24" x 18" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2023

Germination of hope

This piece reflects the delicate process of nurturing hope, even when it feels like a fragile illusion. It explores how we grasp at fleeting signs from the universe—dreams, coincidences, and glances from strangers—convincing ourselves that everything will soon improve. Yet, just as light gives way to darkness, the painting suggests the inevitable ebb and flow of hope and despair. It invites viewers to ponder the emotional cycle of holding on to hope, knowing that the journey is never straightforward and the struggle to believe in better days is constant.

30" x 30" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2022

Ocean of lost hope

"Ocean of Lost Hope" reflects the deep emotional weight of unfulfilled dreams and the frustration of having your plans repeatedly put on hold. Painted during a moment of realization that personal freedom and progress were once again out of reach, the artwork conveys a sense of being adrift—caught in a cycle of waiting and relying on others. The vastness of the ocean symbolizes the overwhelming feeling of having to live according to someone else’s timeline, while the recurring act of pretending everything is fine becomes a central theme in the work. It speaks to the quiet despair of deferred aspirations and the emotional toll of holding on to hope when the future remains uncertain.


20" x 16" x 7/8"
Oil on canvas
2022

Reflection of a Forgotten Reality

"Reflection of a Forgotten Reality" captures the bittersweet experience of looking back at a past that now seems brighter and happier than it felt in the moment. The mind, in its treacherous way, erases the pain and leaves behind only fragments of joy—those fleeting, simple moments tucked between everyday tasks like walking the dog or eating thawed corn. This painting is born out of the frustration of nearly a year and a half without the freedom to create, and the struggle of trying to force something meaningful onto the canvas during this time. It reflects the longing for the ease and flow of creation that once existed, contrasted with the emptiness and darkness of the present. The piece invites viewers to reflect on the distance between past and present, and the endless questions of why things aren’t as they once were.

24" x 18" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2022

River of Decayed Faith

"River of Decayed Faith" embodies the emotional exhaustion of clinging to belief when nothing is within your control. This painting explores the act of believing simply to have a reason to carry on—to convince yourself that everything will soon be okay, even when reality keeps pushing those hopes further away. The repetition of "believe" becomes hollow over time, and the faith that once offered comfort begins to feel like bitter self-deception. The artwork reflects the moment when belief, once a lifeline, decays into something almost burdensome, offering a raw portrayal of emotional disillusionment.


24" x 18" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2022

The Ocean inside

"The Ocean Inside" captures the quiet yet relentless battle that takes place within, a testament to resilience even in the darkest emotional depths. This piece reflects the struggle to keep moving forward when life feels overwhelming, as a faint but persistent voice of hope rises, whispering "this will pass." Through textured layers and deep tones, the painting conveys both the weight of despair and the flickering strength within—a reminder that, even when hope is hard to hear, it continues to fight for a way through.

20" x 16" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2022

Curse

"Curse" delves into the feeling of being trapped in an endless cycle of despair and self-deception. This piece reflects the burden of carrying hope when it feels more like a curse than a blessing. The constant push to believe, to pretend everything will improve, becomes an emotional weight that’s impossible to lift. As the faith in better days fades, it transforms into a relentless, haunting curse—one that refuses to let go. The painting offers a raw depiction of this emotional entrapment, where the very act of hoping feels like an unbearable burden.


72" x 48" x 1.5"
Oil on canvas
2023

53

"53" is a raw and emotionally charged piece that reflects the deep anger and helplessness felt in the face of war and loss. The title refers to the daily wage of $53 earned by soldiers who take the lives of friends and loved ones. This painting channels the artist's rage and frustration, waking up each day to check messages, praying for a sign of life from familiar names—anything, even a single dot. The number "53" becomes a haunting symbol of the senseless violence and devastation caused by war, embodying both personal grief and a broader sense of powerlessness. The work conveys a powerful message about the cost of life in a conflict where even human existence can be reduced to a number. 36" x 12" x 1.5" Oil on canvas 2022